Wait, If nothing matters, then doesn't the fact that nothing matters matters?

                    The concept of nihilism is very interesting. That essentially nothing in this world matters, and that things that do matter to us only matter  because they were projected onto us. For instance getting married. Why do people want to get married? It's to spend the rest of their lives with a companion, but why is such importance placed on finding a spouse? It's not a life or death situation, you can live and be happy without a life partner. So why is it so important? It's been implanted in our heads from early on that we have to spend our lives with someone. Why do we go to school? Why do we have morals. To a nihilist none of these things matter. The importance of these things don't really exist, we, humans just want them to. And in a way Raskolinikov is very much a nihilist. He shows nihilist qualities especially when he speaks to Sonya. R is pondering why Sonya hasn't killed herself yet and is shocked to discover that she is a Christian. He mocks Sonya, asking her if God really is real. He also makes the assumption that Sonya only believes in God as a higher being in order to keep herself sane. That God really doesn't exist but that she wants Him to. (very confusing) I find Nietezsche to be brilliant. He spent a long time forming his takes on life, even though they were controversial(especially the God is Dead one) , And especially when his father was a pastor. And I can see hints of his life in "Crime and Punishment" , specifically R's dream about the beaten horse.